I love my friends :3 + DZP update

Hola people!

It's been too too long I know. I've been so 'busy' doing nothing and everything at the same time. To be honest, my mind is kind of full with a lot of stuff I worry about. So it seems like I don't do anything, I'm mostly just on my phone talking to friends or on facebook, but that's mostly because I want to get my mind off of things I worry about. People always nag on me for being 'on my phone all the time' or 'always on the internet' (oh the cliché) and they whine to me about people not being social anymore but to me I couldn't live without. Not because I can't live without my phone or my laptop. I just can't stand being alone. My phone and laptop connect me with my best friends who are not around the corner. People can say 'then go out with other friends' all they want, but I simply have reasons (other than the distance of me and my best friends) where I can't do that. It bugs me a lot when people judge me for being some kind of addict. Sure, I joke about it a lot with them because I don't want to have to explain myself, but it's starting to really piss me off. This is my way of coping with the so called real world which I hate to pieces. I hate where I live and I hate most things around me. I used to run in my so called addictions like J-music, J-dramas, series and books but due to several reasons they don't work anymore. I'm pretty much a wreck and cry a lot. I am really glad that I have friends who, despite the distance and problems, are always there for me. I love them to pieces and hope that we'll never grow apart.

Anyway. Enough with the depressing confessions, I have done a few things this past half year and it ticks a few Day Zero Project boxes (it ends this year!! AAH! Still have to do a few things!), so here:

9.    Get my driver’s license

YEAAAAH!!!! In 1 go!! I did NOT expect it to happen, but am really relieved I managed to do it! HAPPY!

10.  Finish my current education

With a lot of ups and downs I finished my education and now have a bachelor’s degree… I’m happy I finished, but I don’t feel like I’m ready for what I want to do just yet. So I’m searching for another education, hard to find a fitting 1 tho cause I want to have something in which I can really grow as a person and in carreer. We’ll see.

24.   Lose 5kg

Half a year now or maybe longer I’ve been swimming weekly now, I try to somewhat eat healthy without being on a diet. I’ve lost about 7kg right now, really happy with it and I am planning on losing a lot more. ^^

30.   Don’t eat chocolate for a week

See above, I have weeks where I don’t eat a lot of sweets etc at all.

35.   Cook dinner for (a) friend(s)

I’ve been really into cooking and baking since my last post! So I’ve cooked a few dinners with/for friends at parties or just when we met up. I LOVE IT.

50.   Buy/borrow a random book and read it

I started reading a book I borrowed from my best friend. ^^

77.   Organize a meeting

I’ve organized meetings with friends, organized my birthday but next Friday-Sunday I’ve organized a sleepover with a lot of friends. XD I wonder if it’ll fit in this tiny house, but we’ll manage. :3 SUPER EXCITED!

90.   Give someone a random present

Not much to say about it.

101. Fall in love

I did and that's all there is to say.

No more exams! EVAH

Hey guys! I'm currently in the train going back home... I had a great day with my best friends today! We've been saying to hang out just the 4 of us for a looong time and today it finally happened xD hahaha. We went ti EYE film museum, a new museum about movies and since I'm working on a documentary I thought it would be interesting to go see what they have~ eventually I expected other things, but it was pretty interesting.. The exhibition is really artsy IMO, and rather creepy lol. The basement (which is free xD) was the best thing they have, you can watch little clips of movies, we only watched 1 batch but I thought that it was really fun! It contained a scene from Harry Potter xD hahaha so I was content anyway! Afterwards we went shopping and I was able to find 2 shirts/dresses (dont really know how to use em yet hahaha), it was really fun! ^^ Other than that I've been really busy with my project, exams and an operation... I don't recall if I told you guys about this but I've been having these unbareable pains in the middle of the night because I have galstones (or something). They removed my galbladder (I really dont know if these are the right terms in english so excuse me if I'm wrong xDD) and I had to recover for about a month. Right after my exams came up, but because of the operation I was really tired all the time! LUCKILY!!!!! I did pass both of my exams AND THAT MEANS THAT I PASSED ALL MY EXAMS! YAY PARTY TIIIME XD Now I can fully focus on graduating. :3 Which is an awesome feeling.. For example, if I didn't pass I'd be studying in the train in stead of writing this blog xD. After this I have to prep for my plans in Indonesia because I still have to get a lot of things done before I leave. Only a few more weeks to go! Yay! I'm really excited to shoot some awesome scenes! And then editing without the thought in the back of my mind "you have to study Desi"... Really, this is the best feeling ever! Anyway, I think that's all for now.. Have a great day everyone and thanks for reading ^^

OMG

so many things have happened since I last wrote a blog post!

I've been to Iraq to film for the documentary which is already finished! I've had a wonderful time and an amazing life experience. It wasn't a total cultural shock because I already know a few things from Indonesia, but it was something I eventually didn't want to miss. We only went for like 5 days and it was too short. I really enjoyed my stay over there.

Filming was awesome to do too, but I got really annoyed a lot because things didn't always go my way xD That's just how I roll.

When we got back we started editing the documentary. I was the one doing the actual editing, but my teammates were with me to overlook the entire thing. Some worked on the voice over or searched for extra footage.. it was a real intense time! Everyone was pretty much on edge, but we had  fun too. :3

The release of our documentary was confronting.. seeing it on a big screen was something different and I noticed sooo many mistaks xD yeah, you'll always have that I guess.

Eventually it was a great day and an entire great experience. 5 months of intense working on 1 thing... something I've never done before.

part 1

part 2

But I'll be doing it again! Yes! For my graduation I'll be making another documentary, all by myself. Or actually with a lot of help from my parents because it'll be about my family and myself. (somewhat)

I've started to work on this new project "project keris" this week, because I also had to make 2 more exams. Which I didn't pass. IOERHEIUTHROITHJ. yes.

Anyway, my graduation project will be about the keris (google it) and how it's been in my life for as long as I know, but I don't actually know a lot about it and I want to know more.

It's only in an early stage, but I'm working really hard for it to be great! ^^ Here's to yet another 5 months (or more) of hard work. xD But fun work :3 I've found out that I love editing as much as I love making stuff like magazines. Because of this I find it hard to let others do these kind of choirs... meh, if you want something done right you have to do it yourself anyway.

Anehwhooo. In the meantime I've had a fun christmas with friends and family and got a lot of cookery presents (like 3 Nigella cook books <3 and 2 cookies cookbooks!), a wonderful birthday party for my nii-chan and a quiet but nice new years eve.

I hope to be writing a lot more from now on!

Over and out ^_^

FREEDOM!

AT LAST!!!

Or not...... DAMN I'm still not done yet!! I had my exam today and it went really really BAD, but I can still do a resit in august (yay). That was my greatest concern though.. studying for that damn exam.

I did finish the magazine I had to make for my internship and I am quite content with it... :D I still have to get feedback from my boss and other people so I can make some adjustments, but hey, 90% of it is DONE. <3

I also wrote one report (which backs the magazine up) and that one's as good as finished too. I'm on a ROLL.

I still have to write two shorter reports, aren't that bad I guess. :) Did a lot of research on it already, so that's a relief. I'm going to write those when I finish writing this post. :) I'm in the train right now and this train has free internet access. I still feel like I have to pay this large fee when I get out of the train, but I don't know how they will charge me for it if that's the case LOL.

I'm on my way to Amsterdam right now, one of my best friends' birthday is sunday and I'll be spending the night with one of my other best friends, because I live kinda far away from them. :( (It's around 3,5 hrs or so to my friends' birthday by train. If I could drive by car it'd be around 2 hrs. SHEEH damn train is taking this long route xD)

Anyway! Tomorrow I'll be having a lot of fun YET AGAIN, since I celebrated another friend's birthday last weekend. She's also going abroad for a YEAR T^T, I promised not to cry and I didn't (yet :p). I'm planning on visiting her soon though ^_^ finally going to London/Barcelona~ WHOO! I've never been there before o_o I have been to Mallorca though... :)

I met a lot of cool people during that birthday and I had so much fun... really something I needed!

I also had my nails done that day, lol. Never had acrylic nails before, but I will write another post about that seperately.

I also made a 'birthday magazine' for my friend, I don't know if I can upload it so you guys can see it, but I will ask her if she minds. :)

Well I guess that's all I have to say for now, which is already a lot XD .. I missed writing here... :)

Talk to you guys soon! Take care <3

NWLY

I've had a few conversations with friends who start a new relationship. "Warn me when I turn into one of 'those'!" "I won't let my friends down!" .. but they all lie! When you do 'warn' them they get mad at you for poking your nose into their epic relationship. EXCUSE ME? You told me to!!!

I also have friends who do spend time with me and with other friends (without their significant other), but, funny, those people don't have the 'talk' with me. Coincidence? I think not! I'm guessing that those friends who want to reasure me about our friendship feel guilty in a way... they already know that they're that kind of person and they're scared to give in. Why else do you have to reasure me? You're actually just trying to convince yourself! These people make me puke in my mouth...

Maybe I'm being a huge hypocrite right now, but I don't care. I've had these words on my mind EVERY DAY for more than a year now and I'm sick of keeping my mouth shut tight. I'll be honest, I was a person who hungered for love blablabla, but since I started college I've changed, I guess. Yes, I've fallen in love and liked a few guys and no ofcourse it didn't work out ('ofcourse' because I've become so bitter), but in that period of time I've learned to let my childish fantasies go. I still have my dreams and I still dream A LOT, but maybe I've grown into a stage where I can think a little less naive. I still 'believe in love' and all that blabla, I just can't stand people who suddenly let their friends fall for a f*ck. I mean a 'good relationship'. I've become a person who cares a lot for friends and I now know who are my real friends. A lot of my current friends have a relationship and they DO NOT LET ME DOWN because they have to go shopping for shoes with their boyfriend or WHATEVER. They put effort in visiting me, they don't want to do e-ve-ry little thing with their bf/gf. It's the little things that count! Give them a call, a text, an e-mail, whatever!

There, I've said it. You may agree or disagree, but I've had this on my mind for sooo long...

I'm living for the weekends!

Last weekend was so awesome! I spend 2 nights at Drea's place and we went to Primark~ It was so much fun! I bought a new coat, shoes, a shirt.. blabla! I'm so happy with all of it XD haha. I also bought Pokemon black.. GET!

It's very different from the other ones IMO O_O I have to get used to it XD haha. But I like it!! I picked the water-type pokemon.. Oshawott or something? I'm not too thrilled about the starter pokemon tbh...

ANYWAY.

I also went to my other best friend's birthday~ It was so much fun!! I really had a great time. We played some games, laughed and made some pictures..

 

We finally have group pics XD!

The birthday girl is the panda one~ haha. We bought it for her.. I love it when we all put our heads (and wallets) together and buy a big present.

I for example got my precious Nintendo DSi XL from all of my friends. I wasn't writing this blog when I got it, so I'll just write about it now.

I was so surprised to get this....! I have some pictures of when I opened it and my face is, as people say, priceless HAHA. (I'm not going to post them because they're ugly !! XD) I didn't expect anything like it at all haha. If I'm not mistaken I'm the 'first' one of us to get such a big present.. I felt SO LOVED, warm and fuzzy inside it was HEARTS EVERYWHERE. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

EXPLOSION OF HEARTS WHUAH! ♥

Haha, yeah that's how I felt that day. XD 

What I'm trying to tell you guys, is that I have great friends and that I wuv them so much~ haha. Not just because we like spending money on each other, but because of all the effort we put into the presents we buy!

This is a little appreciation blog for my friends. I'm not going to name anyone, because they know. (And if they don't then they're not real friends anyway!)