NWLY

I've had a few conversations with friends who start a new relationship. "Warn me when I turn into one of 'those'!" "I won't let my friends down!" .. but they all lie! When you do 'warn' them they get mad at you for poking your nose into their epic relationship. EXCUSE ME? You told me to!!!

I also have friends who do spend time with me and with other friends (without their significant other), but, funny, those people don't have the 'talk' with me. Coincidence? I think not! I'm guessing that those friends who want to reasure me about our friendship feel guilty in a way... they already know that they're that kind of person and they're scared to give in. Why else do you have to reasure me? You're actually just trying to convince yourself! These people make me puke in my mouth...

Maybe I'm being a huge hypocrite right now, but I don't care. I've had these words on my mind EVERY DAY for more than a year now and I'm sick of keeping my mouth shut tight. I'll be honest, I was a person who hungered for love blablabla, but since I started college I've changed, I guess. Yes, I've fallen in love and liked a few guys and no ofcourse it didn't work out ('ofcourse' because I've become so bitter), but in that period of time I've learned to let my childish fantasies go. I still have my dreams and I still dream A LOT, but maybe I've grown into a stage where I can think a little less naive. I still 'believe in love' and all that blabla, I just can't stand people who suddenly let their friends fall for a f*ck. I mean a 'good relationship'. I've become a person who cares a lot for friends and I now know who are my real friends. A lot of my current friends have a relationship and they DO NOT LET ME DOWN because they have to go shopping for shoes with their boyfriend or WHATEVER. They put effort in visiting me, they don't want to do e-ve-ry little thing with their bf/gf. It's the little things that count! Give them a call, a text, an e-mail, whatever!

There, I've said it. You may agree or disagree, but I've had this on my mind for sooo long...